thricecursed, on 11 July 2020 - 12:27 AM, said:
You've done this before where you start detailing your case history when someone is arguing against your logic. You wrote that you still believe that in order to repay your "family's debt", your country could do what it wanted with you. All I'm saying is, if you wanted to repay your country, do it through productivity. Make something useful of your life.
You're 21 and you seemingly spend quite a bit of time online. There are a number of things you could be doing with that time, like learning how to program. Many jobs these days can be done from home.
I'm a software developer for example and have been working from home since May, going until September. But I never really have to stay in the office.
If you're artistic, you can learn graphic design. Make music. Anything, dude. The internet is full of free tutorials.
I've had friends with severe schizophrenia and one of them sadly passed away 2 years ago. She dealt with very similar issues as you, but she didn't just give up. Are you gonna spend the next 50 years sulking?
Anyway, you see what I mean? The argument you presented is "only people who invest in the country should be allowed to vote", and then you offered up mostly armed forces related options. So if you like, I can make the point more general and less personal: in general, don't fucking join the army if you want to help your country, unless you're completely destitute and are hoping they'll pay your tuition once you get out (if you get out). Don't join for stupid reasons.
PS: I linked Mcveigh's essay in my previous post.
PPS: I really don't buy that you're suffering this much and yet manage to read posts/articles and respond coherently. If you can read, you can learn. If you can learn, you can do things. It might be hard, but that's life.
I used to read Dostoyevsky, Nietzsche, and Wilde, now I struggle to read junji Ito.
The idea that I could program when I couldn't get past the introduction, means you think I am lying to you.
Here's a link of me talking to my lawyer about increasing my disability rating.
http://imgur.com/a/JPTgC1f
I rate 100% disability by the VA, which means this.
"Total occupational and social impairment, due to such symptoms as: gross impairment in thought processes or communication; persistent delusions or hallucinations; grossly inappropriate behavior; persistent danger of hurting self or others; intermittent inability to perform activities of daily living (including maintenance of minimal personal hygiene); disorientation to time or place; memory loss for names of close relatives, own occupation, or own name."
So you can choose to believe me or not, but the VA in this country usually enjoys fucking people over.
I am not sulking whatsoever, I am enjoying my life in the ways that I see fit. I have hobbies, tinkering with fight sticks, dabbling with pixel art, playing enya at 2:48 in the morning.
I enjoy life very much.
I used to hate it but learned that even though my life may be shit, everyone else also has a life full of shit, and all we can do, like Camus said, is accept our fate and smile.
The whole attitude that work or being "productive" is what makes a human being worth something is absolutely bullshit.
Life has no intrinsic value, it is up to you to give your own life value, right now, texting what little friends I have pictures of my cat, helping others on psychotic related subreddits, spending time with family, listening to enya, upgrading my fight stick, playing snk games, playing Pac man, playing Duke Nukem, and talking on this forum, may sound sad to you, but it gives my life value.
I like it the way it is.
I like being free of the chains that bind you.
Society will one day evolve to the point where the chains that bind most, facets of consumerism, work, etc. will cease to exist, the way that I see it, I'm already at that point.
I can live in my car go wherever I want, do whatever I want, and I plan on doing just that.
Also I don't know if you are unable to glance over webpages like I do, but the Tennesee river valley authority, peace corps, park service, have little or nothing to do with the military.