[Forge]

Coryyne, on 29 July 2014 - 10:25 PM, said:

That's the problem, I'm not happy.

Sorry for being personal, I feel comfortable enough with everyone here to talk about this stuff. I just ripped a bowl and drank a 20oz of Smirnoff, so I'm comfortably crossfaded.

Buck up and lay off the alcohol & weed as a crutch -it's a depressant and really can't be helping anything. (winding down after a long day, or with a group of friends is always okay though)

if you have to deal with your issues without being artificially numbed then you can put them to rest. until then you're just circling the drain.

once you figure out that what makes you happy is the only thing that matters, fuck everybody else (since that's how pretty much everyone else thinks anyway) you'll have the self confidence to ignore all those shallow assholes that float around the outside of your bubble.

[The Commander]

Forge, on 30 July 2014 - 05:52 AM, said:

maybe where you're from. in our country most adults will have more than one tooth still in their skull to brush

Google tells me otherwise.

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[Forge]

if it's on the internet, it must be true

http://en.wiktionary...wiki/teethbrush


obviously you lost your sense of humor around the same time you lost your teeth.
if i had to gum creamed corn i'd be bitter too

[Forge]

[PokeThePower]

I don't post pictures of myself much because there is already enough of my mental semen scattered around the internet.

Here is what Brindle the savior of humanity thinks every time each of you posts a picture or poem of self doubt...

[Forge]

he thinks he likes peanut butter?

[PokeThePower]

Forge, on 30 July 2014 - 06:36 PM, said:

he thinks he likes peanut butter?

He doesn't care... so long as it's true and he can sleep easy.

[Forge]

[PokeThePower]

WHOA THERE PEITHO!!!! Gimme all your money: https://www.kickstar...arth-the-series

[Person of Color]

Wieder, on 30 July 2014 - 07:01 PM, said:

He doesn't care... so long as it's true and he can sleep easy.

What kind of dog is he? I see some pit bull in him, but he doesn't have pitbull ears.

[Forge]

Wieder, on 30 July 2014 - 07:44 PM, said:

WHOA THERE PEITHO!!!!

me?
you got me on that one and i had to look her up.

more like her brother Hermes in reference to crossing boundaries

[PokeThePower]

Protected by Viper, on 31 July 2014 - 07:36 AM, said:

What kind of dog is he? I see some pit bull in him, but he doesn't have pitbull ears.

He's a French Bulldog, though he's more slender than most so he even looks a little quirky relative to most Frenchies.

Forge, on 31 July 2014 - 09:59 AM, said:

me?
you got me on that one and i had to look her up.

Heh... to be honest I really was just looking for something that felt good with the picture. I came across her when initially thinking I would go look for funny pictures of strange men seducing tiny dogs with peanut butter... but I decided not to google that and somehow wound up at Wikipedia looking at mythological characters. The name and John's hands in the picture matched perfectly for me for some reason... perhaps the vodka helped... and now we're here talking about how irrelevant my thought process is.

Forge, on 31 July 2014 - 09:59 AM, said:

more like her brother Hermes in reference to crossing boundaries

Nah... boundaries cross you!

As far as I know we've only tried to use peanut butter to trick him into eating his heart-worm pills... but we eventually switched to these instead.

So domestic!

You might enjoy Fourplay if you haven't already seen it.

[Forge]

we tried those pill pockets on our pets. damn critters would eat the pocket and leave the pill. Found that canned cheeze wiz stuff worked pretty good for the dog. The cat; we gave up on tricks and i ended up holding her down while my wife stuffed pills coated in olive oil down her gullet before we finally got in the liquid forms of medication from the vet. Now we just put it in her food and walk away. Everyone wins.
It's not very comfortable living in the same house as a cat that's mad at you.

[Jimmy]

Coryyne, on 29 July 2014 - 10:25 PM, said:

That's the problem, I'm not happy...................................................

I dunno what to tell you. I used to be really self-conscious about how I look too. I have had really bad cystic acne since I was like 12, and could never really afford any of the "good" medication for it. It used to be REALLY bad, as Oderus Urungus said my "acne [was] heavily bunched." Now even though I get about the normal amount of acne a teenager gets when he first hits puberty (I'm 21 mind you), I'm completely covered in scars. I also used to be really fat (shaking the last bits of my gut is hard because I have a spinal condition which MAKES me fat around the midsection and I could never afford to treat that either + I'm lazy and can't afford weights yet.) Basically what I'm trying to say is, I've been ugly since as long as I can remember and will continue to be. It used to really bother me. Then I just stopped giving a shit. I'm always gonna be ugly. Being ugly worked out for Lemmy and Iggy Pop. But the good news is you're not ugly and I'm not kidding when I hit on you, though I'm intentionally laying it on really thick just to fuck with you.

[Forge]

Jimmy, on 31 July 2014 - 10:06 PM, said:

I'm always gonna be ugly.

nonsense. you and coryyne would have beautiful children (if you can figure out the logistic of making that happen)

[Ronin]

Coryyne, on 29 July 2014 - 10:25 PM, said:

As soon as I go out in public that barrier of confidence breaks down.

You become the acts you do, over time. Try to give less of a fuck what other people think (especially those people who mean nothing to you) a little bit more over time and eventually you could break out of this cycle of fear, and that's all it is.
Try to embrace the fear as a challenge a little bit at a time, after a while if it doesn't crush you, you become very strong. You can train the mind like the body to become stronger, and like the the body it can be painful but after a while you see results and that pushes you further.
When your main problems exist only within your head, it's up to you to find them and break them down, public opinion changes drasticlly over time no need for you to wait for others to catch up.
Fuck drugs, do drug to have fun not to hide from yourself, they will only make you weaker in the long run unless you suffer from serious chemical imbalances.
I have seen a few photos of you and I had no idea you were trans anything, you look like a regular rock girl, try not to be so paranoid.
You should put yourself in situations you don't like and learn how to adapt to the things that set you off.
Think about it this way, how many times have you seen someone that you noticed on the street or in a bar or where ever, like they had a strange haircut or walked funny or drove a squealing car, now ask yourself, did you give a shit? Did you dwell on that?
You would be very wrong to think that strangers give a shit about you, so why should you give a shit about a thought that may or may not enter that strangers head for a couple of seconds before being forgotten forever?
Projecting your own insecurities on to strangers...drop it.

[Gambini]

Ronan, on 01 August 2014 - 04:09 PM, said:

Think about it this way, how many times have you seen someone that you noticed on the street or in a bar or where ever, like they had a strange haircut or walked funny or drove a squealing car, now ask yourself, did you give a shit? Did you dwell on that?

This. Also -while not necessarily applying for this case- there´s nothing that inspires me more respect than a person that can overcome their limitations and even wave them with pride. Think of a "fat" girl dancing like if it was the last time, or an "ugly" guy speaking confidently and loud to a multitude. Self-confidence can make all the difference in the world, wake up mr Freeman.

[Person of Color]

Coryyne, on 29 July 2014 - 10:25 PM, said:

That's the problem, I'm not happy. I have a serious unhealthy obsession with looking perfect. Even then, my self-esteem is so low that it doesn't even matter. And I think my views ARE coming from either society or something else. It's just that my problem is that I'm not comfortable presenting ANY image, unless I take a million and weed them out, or get inebriated before I go out so I don't notice other people noticing me. It really sucks! And I'm trying to be completely honest...it's not easy. I'm always seriously critical of what other people think of me, to the point where it doesn't really matter what I think of me most of the time. For instance, the game I'm developing with the publisher - we almost have ZERO social media contact in comparison with our direct rival (Elysian Shadows and their Adventures in Game Development) because I am terrified of what I must look to other people! So I have others go in my place and then people wonder what's wrong with me showing myself in public. It turns into a disaster every time and it kills me.

It's rare that I can present myself the way I want to without anyone else triggering low self-esteem. I think it's my general anxiety, it's really bad. I should get on something, maybe.

I'm always afraid of getting money, if I ever had a lot of it at once I'd be one of those people who would become unrecognizable. It's a sad, weird fantasy that I can't shake. I wish I was happy with myself all the time but I'm hoping in time that I can accept myself. I never have. Maybe it stemmed from both sets of parents, who knows, I really have no clue.

Though, it is nice to get flattering comments. At least for that small amount of time, I am content with myself. What weirds me out is that I know other Trans people who...for lack of a better term, don't look as... convincing (no offense to them, those people do exist IRL) or such, and they are completely happy with themselves. Like, why can't I be like that? I know, for a fact, that I am more than passable but it's not a thought that sticks with me. As soon as I go out in public that barrier of confidence breaks down.

Sorry for being personal, I feel comfortable enough with everyone here to talk about this stuff. I just ripped a bowl and drank a 20oz of Smirnoff, so I'm comfortably crossfaded.

Okay, listen to me dipshit, when I'm working again I'm taking a weekend off and I'm flying you out here to the faggotiest fucking bar in Greenwich fucking Villiage. I'm going to dress you up like the world's biggest tans boi toi and you're going to get laid by a bear with AIDS.

How can you pass up free AIDS? It's free. And it's AIDS. It practically sells itself!

[Person of Color]

Seriously though, I'm taking you to the gayest part of NYC. You'll get looked at by people who want to screw you, or at least, give you a scabies cuddle.

[Jimmy]

She already gets that on the internet.

But Ronan reminded me of a lesson I've learned, which has helped me incredibly with women, in general most people don't notice your flaws. Or at least to the level you do. Granted, I'm given more of a break because I'm cis-male scum and most women aren't too picky about what their men look like. ("Is he going to treat me right? Does he work hard? Does he smell okay?" Generally comes to mind first.) Most people are so caught up in their own flaws, they don't even think about yours. Usually while you're sweating and thinking to yourself "I hope they're not judging X or Y about me." they're also thinking "I hope they're not judging X or Y about me." I talk to hot chicks at parties all the time. My issue is always finding something in common and/or closing.

[Jimmy]

P.S. Can I go to the gayest part of NYC? I'm trying to get my dick sucked by a stranger.

[Person of Color]

Yeah, if you want speed bumps on your pecker.

[Ronin]

Jimmy, on 01 August 2014 - 07:05 PM, said:

My issue is always finding something in common and/or closing.

A: Always
B: Be
C: Closing

[Jimmy]

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. I never had the confidence for this shit until like a year ago.

I heard the girlies call speed bumps "french ticklers."

[Person of Color]

Ronan, on 01 August 2014 - 07:18 PM, said:

A: Always
B: Be
C: Closing

As you all know first prize is a Cadillac Eldorado. Anyone wanna see second prize? Second prize is a set of steak knives. Third prize is you're fired. Get the picture?

[Ronin]

I think Confidence is a real turn on for all sexes.

I see women that otherwise I would not turn my head, but if they look like they are having fun and it's not forced, it's sexy. If they look like they believe in themselves and that they have something to offer it's contagious.

Very unattractive to see pretty woman full of herself sitting at a bar looking miserable, because she's not getting the attention she feels she deserves for being such a nicely painted plank of wood.

[Hendricks266]

Protected by Viper, on 01 August 2014 - 07:10 PM, said:

Yeah, if you want speed bumps on your pecker.

Ribbed for Her Pleasure.

[Person of Color]

Ronan, on 01 August 2014 - 07:32 PM, said:

I think Confidence is a real turn on for all sexes.

I see women that otherwise I would not turn my head , but if they look like they are having fun and it's not forced, it's sexy. If they look like they believe in themselves and that they have something to offer it's contagious.

I agree. I hate submissive weak women. Give me someone I can conquer the world with. I'll take the sexy negress over your crooked toothed Jap little girl slut any day.

You know what else is a huge turn on for all sexes? Being a fucking sociopath.

[Person of Color]

Seriously though, I'm always up for anything and I'm one of those guys who cares about the journey more than the destination, and I want to be around people who are just as adventurous and make everything awesome.

I'm both very intense and very laid back at the same time. Hard to explain but I love intense people.

[Ronin]

Protected by Viper, on 01 August 2014 - 07:40 PM, said:

You know what else is a huge turn on for all sexes? Being a fucking sociopath.

It would appear to be true, I have a brother who is one and women won't leave him alone, I think they want to fix him or look after him or some bullshit.

He is aware of this an it makes him a proficient predator.

His internet hook up stories are hilarious. He is a pure deviant, which I find gas as I'm an old school man of honour. At least that's what the mask I choose to wear says

I also like insane people, they seem sane to me, in fact normal people creep me out, I think they are a different species, or maybe just dead inside.