Cartaphilus, on 21 July 2020 - 02:18 AM, said:
Friendships where you relate to each other based on how shit your lives are never end well.
Usually it's the person just wanting to move on. Sometimes you're a reminder of how bad their life used to be, or currently is (if you're doing better than they are), or what they wish they could leave behind.
Then again, I once knew a schizophrenic who would suddenly freak out at me and imagine all kinds of weird scenarios in their head in which I was the enemy or involved in some grand conspiracy that sought to destroy them. Didn't talk to that person for about a year, but they eventually came back.
Yeah I didn't ever flip out on her, most of my time is spent in isolation because of general paranoia.
She has bpd with recurrent psychotic depression so sometimes she's very distant, but it's never for months.
It wasn't solely talking about how shit our lives were, we talked about everything, and I mean everything.
Hot actors and actresses, sexual experiences, relationships, general stuff that was going on in our lives.
We had a lot of similarities, I always joked around that we were twins seperated at birth, she agreed with that statement.
It's just so incredibly odd that a seemingly good friendship ended without some form of clarification.
If this happened a couple of months ago, I probably wouldn't be able to handle myself, so I'm getting better at emotional control.
But fuck, closure would be nice you know?
I had to call one of my exfriends that had a genuine reason to be an exfriend, I called because I wanted to talk about a new negative I was experiencing, and I felt I needed somebody who could relate, to talk about it.
She answered and it was fairly good conversation.
The man that thinks everyone deserves hell, thinks that he deserves closure, I know it's a contradiction.
But fuck it hurts.