Wow, what an experience! I heard this mod compared to Finnegan's Wake on discord and had to see what was going on ( I love bizarre and unapproachable things ), and I decided to check the mod out after eating some magic mushrooms (psilocybin-derivative psychedelic shrooms, legal where I live

). Well I only got to the room with many faces and didn't manage to progress any further after about 30 minutes, but
man alive! It was an experience that no other medium has ever, or certainly will ever, convey the same type of abstract helpless dirtiness and uncertainty. This map is dark, and not just in luminosity. In a brightly lit room and all the incandescence is sucked out once this mod is turned on. I might just be projecting some of what I felt due to the hallucinogens in my system at the time, but what little I managed to explore felt like walking through complex-PTSD.
When I first opened the map I thought the spinning black thing was some kind of record-player, and when I moved around that illusion gave way to something that felt purely obscene, like it shouldn't be visible from a child's bedroom. Looking around to see the child's bed made me feel a sort of vicarious melancholy, certainly familiar to my own difficult childhood, but the experience is distinct - this is not
my childhood nightmare, but a horror native to being that young and vulnerable.
The vending machine with the Duke Burger face on it was, at first, funny and felt warm after the gritty dirty environments before it, especially the scary moment with the hanged man. The music was comforting and reminded me of the hallmark sleazy nightclubs endemic to the world of Duke Nukem - it was a brief reverie calling back, once again, to moments of my own youth, seeking shelter from the chaos around me in this very same video game.
Staring at the face on the vending machine's side turned from comfort to terror as my controls and mouselook locked up, I assume a side effect of the ostensible "corruption" or what-not going on in the background? In any case, the effect was visceral and deeply unsettling! Rather than a voluntary reprieve, the machine was suddenly a malignant and mildly incomprehensible force. After that, I kicked the faces on the wall for about 10 minutes, and eventually, well, I ran dry and quit not out of boredom but lack of hope! I was totally helpless to make any further progress, and the experience thus far had left me feeling clammy skin and a dry mouth. Well okay that last part is because of the shrooms.... but it just feels
right to give the credit to the mod at hand.
I watched a short bit of TLOD's stream of the map but in truth I don't want to spoil anything! I had a wonderful time and the abstract nature of the mod is
perfect for psychonauts and abstract thinkers like myself. It's a potent kind of unnerving, depressing, and ultimately distressing that I have only ever seen come out of Russia and Scandinavia.
I LOVE IT. Though I'm not ready to dive back in again just yet, I look forward to combing through this mind bending experience more on my own. Truly this is the work of an undeniably genius and unhinged mind. The greatest and most complex thinkers in humanity are fringe-thinkers, I think. This is what it looks like when you expose that kind of genius.
Thank you for sharing this. I'm sure it was a pretty gnarly experience to make it, in multiple ways. It's definitely a gnarly beast to play